i wrote to respond
but this time the tech didn't eat the words
i did

remember what you will
how you will
we both will anyways

and i don't feel up to bridging the gap between those rememberances
you can demand whatever you want
and you can expect whatever you want
and you can react however you want
when i don't meet
i may be made of different stuff
but it crumbles too
but i won't add this to the list of things that are tearing me apart

but i wunder how one is meant to react to an unexpected deamnd
the weight of a carload of ppl
driving in circles
waiting unbidden

i did say something earlier
i said don't wait for me
each time i said don't wait for me
i hoped that i could, come back and have it be alright
i wanted to share a wunderful day with you
but i couldn't
and i will not feel responsible

i would have spoiled your day
i was in no mood to celebrate
i have things going on
and i thot it might be best to spare you from them on your big day
because i spoil things when i am in those sorts of moods
but i suppose it is better that you assume i'm an ass
because i'm sure i am one
thanks

heeheehee more meat floss gone! hurrah, hurray!
alack i did not make it back
but much that needed to be mashed about
was mashed about
:-)
and now the skys above my head a breaking
zap zap, a flash so bright that on the way home i had to pullover because i couldn't see
zap zap!
sleep tight

heeheehee my doc never takes blood
well rarely
was the blood for the cut? that would be bizarre!

shizat, i hate these games
they always trick me into thinking about them
and after involving myself i have a difficult time disengaging to look for co-incidance!
silly games in my head
silly games

everytime i read that i think you are calling me a wacko

---them i remember that you don';t make that mmany mistkes when you tpe!~